I didn't realize it could still feel like this...
Knowing I still have no control...
a disagreement can still crash me
a fight can still pull me in
a slow and towering spiral
friends..
My heart pounds knowing this affects me more than you
Knowing you don't care if we continue
or knowing you can laugh
the same way you used to
I wasn't drinking before...
But I am now
6 days nicotine free
back to 6 minutes
I don't quite understand it
I'm always overthinking
and that's probably what this is.
Feeling the world needs its own label
Some type of caution.
One thing can eat you alive
and the emotions can swallow you whole.
You were the only person I knew for years at this point
My lifeline
But thinking about it I wasn't that for you
and maybe that's why it feels different.